Hell hath no mercy! .. atleast on me

Things that i cannot do:

1. cant say NO to people
2. cant get myself to be proactive about things in my life
3. cant wake up early in the mornings
4. cant stop myself from being stupid in many situations
5. cant exercise
6. cant take a bus
7. cant become friendly easily
8. cant learn new languages fast
9. cant calculate numbers fast
10. cant say anything intelligent when someone cries
11. cant confront people in difficult situationscant be dainty, oversweet or overtly girlish
12. cant tolerate people who are like the previous point
13. cant get angry easily
14. cant stop myself from blowing my top and the head of the person at the receiving end, when i do get angry

Things are not looking very good. But out of all the things that i cant do, my temper is the one thing thats really scaring me.

Here is my weekend( and week beginning) temper log:

Friday:
Almost yelled at a very good friend of mine. Thank God.. i didnt

Saturday:
Wanted to break a random guy's camera coz i thought he was taking pictures of us.
Yelled at another guy and would have slapped him if i wasnt locked in the back seat of the Qualis

Monday:
Threw a "rather controlled" tantrum when i reached office and realised that all the team members had been allocated new seats and the seat that was assigned to me was occupied by someone else who had been sitting there for the last 3 months. I pretty much managed to scare the crap out of that guy and the rest of my team members.

Like i said.. things are looking pretty bad.